State of Flux

A woman comes to a crossroads, but isn't a perpendicular four way intersection. No roads here travel straight with clear directions. No, even the road behind her is skewed with twists, turns, hills, valleys, over hanging low branches, logs to jump over... she can't see where she's been and sometimes she feels like she was never there at all.

There is only the present, only the crossroads. The crossroads that has numerous options, and many that veer off the main ones. Which one to choose? No path is clear, and none stand directly in front of her.

Should she choose the one with the hill first? Should she start on a difficult trek and know that eventually the hill will peak and then it will be easy sailing? Or perhaps the hill ends on a cliff...

Does she take the lane with fog, obscuring all but a pretty daffodil glowing beacon yellow in the mist?

There is one that goes straight as far as the eye can see, but it appears to end before it should. The horizon lays beyond the end of the road. What does that mean? Is it a short path? Will she have to back track? Is there something at the end or does it veer like the others? If something does lie at the end of it, what kind of something is it?

There is a rocky path, she can see it twisting and turning and believes she sees another portion of it further up the mountain it circles. Up top a mountain lion screams and pounces into the thicket. Shivers zip up her back and down her arms to the tips of her fingers. She dances the tips on her jeans to mimic the tingling after it has fled.

The way closest to dead ahead, but slightly off center appears to be down hill, a sharp decline for she can only see a small portion of the path. The way looks clear and smooth, but past experience has told her that smooth sailing isn't always such, and the downhill doesn't reap the best reward.

What direction does she pick? Even as the writer of this, I don't know, but I suspect the rocky path with the mountain lion. Why? Well perhaps because at least one of the dangerous is known... but I think it is more likely that she actually felt something when looking at that path. Shivers ran up her spine--whether they were fear or excitement I don't know, the two are closely linked, but this woman at the crossroads doesn't want apathy. She likes adventure, a challenge, but she also wants to feel--to live, and feeling is living to her, even if its bad... it's an experience that she wants, and she wants it all.